chances

do not wait till a tomorrow comes. chances are like fireworks. their presence can be felt bt it is short. how many times have i let chances slip through my fingers? many, i guess. and so what had came out of it? regret! i hate the word if. just like what one of my friends always said, it is a conditional word. if the first case doesnt happen, the second case will not be the result. to me, if is just a comforting word, to make oneself not feel bad after the mess.

i do not want to live in the world of if anymore. i cant stand the smiling faces and the pretendence that nothing has happened before. is it just me or them? i am feeling this way now is probably because i am always standing at the same spot, whereas they have accepted and moved on with life. and so, they are better than me in a sense. gosh! is it really time for me to migrate?

facing a mess that i had created, not knowing how and where to clear up from. it is really nothing but i just cannot cross my personal obstacle. i am causing so much unhappiness that i feel like crap. no! i dont want to go back in time. chances only happen once and for a reason. if i missed it, that's it. no point crying to go back in time. hang on!

being happy

i manage to get my hands on jason mraz latest album recently, listening to the songs right now in this hot night. i dont know why but his music has this power to make me happy and want to listen to on a lazy night. everything is right now, except a missing cosy sofa with some hot chocolate by a fireplace.

stay happy! that is the only positive energy around me to make me feel that all these years are worthwhile. no more petty thoughts.

over!

the dreadful exams are finally out!

last night was totally insane, because i went out with kns (pee, eve, mh, peiwen, woon, lydia, liting, dabai, sai) to celebrate pee and eve 21st bday. smart me plan a mini cupcake surprise for both the bday girls with sai. yesyes, our dearest pee's bf, ryan SAI. haha. one bf is never enough for kns to torture and so dabai was pulled there too. =) going out with this batch of crazy girls up till today is the best thing that can happen to me. although it was super shagged (strictly not due to the rushing to the airport to send eve off after our dinner), it was fun fun FUN! laughing at each other's stupidity, making a fool out of ourselves in the public and getting unfriendly stares from passers-by. we are always living in our mini kns world whenever we are out. inconsiderate, some may say bt fun is what we are cared about. now, i have to wait for our dear dear eve to be back from thailand to get the photos from her.

my ally since sec3 and goi are flying to usa soon. omg! so fast. i am so going to miss them during these 3 months. choo wants to travel too. =)